I was shaking. Sitting on the edge of this concrete ledge my body felt tight and stiff with anxiety. We were about two stories up which isn’t that high I suppose but still, every second up there felt like an eternity. I tried to calm myself because I didn’t want to let the fear show on my face.
After about a minute it was over. I had to come down. I didn’t care whether we got the shot or not. Then I looked at the camera to see the results. ‘Wow,’ I exhaled in relief, pleased to see what we’d captured.
On Monday I conceptualized the idea and did the prop styling. On Tuesday I executed the idea, including the hair, makeup, and photography. On Wednesday I did the post production to bring the most out of the images that I could. Today I am publishing it. Sharing this departure from my normal style as my 100th post. An exploration of myself as the artist, the muse, and the canvas as a way to heal.
How do you define home? Where you live now? Where you grew up? Where your family is? Or something else? Oftentimes how I interpret where home is depends on how I feel, who’s asking, or any other possible variable. My definition of home feels like it’s always changing and lately I’ve been thinking about where exactly that even is for me.
Kealan Sullivan is a Toronto fashion OG. In a city where fashion boutiques in the downtown core are here today and gone tomorrow, Sullivan stood her ground as a highly respected, successful business woman for over 10 years. As the owner behind 69 Vintage, her life revolved around sourcing and selling the best secondhand pieces she could find to a city full of discerning thrifters.
Now that she’s entering a new chapter, I caught up with Kealan to see what I could learn from her entrepreneurial spirit. She opened up about how she started her business, how she ended it (on purpose), and what she’s passionate about now. From creating a runway collection (which I’m wearing!), to traveling, to reconnecting with herself, Kealan is doing it her way.
The air is hot and sticky with moisture, even as the sun is beginning to set. Distant sounds of voices and car horns can be heard in the dense air as a large, heavy gate slowly opens. This is Lagos, Nigeria.
More specifically, we find each other in Victoria Garden City, a comparatively quiet and gated residential neighbourhood where one must pass a security post to enter. Welcome! I’m so excited to share an inside look at my world in a way I never have before.
Anybody else feeling a little burnt out? Be it from the holidays or just life in general? With Christmas just behind us and New Years on the horizon I want to take some time out to remind you (and myself) about the importance of self-care.
Lately I’ve been feeling myself slipping. Stress from work combined with a bit of winter depression has been making me feel like a shell of myself. If you’ve been feeling this way too, don’t ignore it. This is our body’s way of asking for a little more attention focused inward.
On July 11th, Alessia Cara turned 20-years-old. But instead of making herself the focus, she gave us a gift. She released the music video for her third single “Scars To Your Beautiful” on Cosmopolitan.com. And in an instant, the world met a handful of individuals that while different in appearance, share similar stories of triumph over differences. And I was one of those people.
In that moment, I could either remain silent and feel uncomfortable about myself and what was to come next or I could choose to be a unicorn. I chose to be a unicorn.
I have no chill. As in, I have a really hard time finding my inner calmness, relaxing, and just chilling out. My inability to find peace and recharge is one of my biggest self care struggles.
Back in April I was approached by Muji Canada to come visit their head office for their first open house. At the time I didn’t know too much about the brand beyond having been in the store before and seen their selection of lifestyle and home goods. I knew them to be a favorite among YouTube beauty gurus for their acrylic storage cases often used to organize makeup but I didn’t know about their philosophy and what makes them different.
After hearing from the president himself, I learned that their products are designed to be functional with a clean, minimalist aesthetic. Their ideal life is a “simple pleasant life“, a concept at the heart of their vision.